Life is strange and is never predictable!
I got - what I wanted and what was my so-called dream. However, something is still missing. It is difficult to understand and express this feeling. However, life is empty. I am still searching for answer to the question, the question that has always been friend of my sleepless nights. I do not know what exactly I want. Maybe I will never know. However, now it doesn't even matters.
In just few months, I realized that the journey was more joyful than the destiny. Short-term happiness is always there. However, it is not what I was looking for. Maybe, it is not my fault because I kept of moving with Spotless Mind. A mind that had no clue it is heading in a direction with dead end. A mind that had no clue it is striving hard for something virtual. A mind that had no clue it is living in colours of icy imagination.
Life without goal has become a big problem for me. I do not care - what success is or what dream is. I just want to get out of meaningless freedom and feel alive once again. I want struggle, hunger and pain. I want to drown in the tears of my own heart once again.
I pray to god that I could move with same old Spotless Mind once again.
How happy is the blameless vestal's lot!
The world forgetting, by the world forgot.
Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind!
Each pray'r accepted, and each wish resign'd;
- Alexander Pope
