Am I on the right track ?

Everyday I wake-up in the morning and start my day with same old routine. It’s like living life as a robot with On/Off button, robot that is programmed to do same tasks each day.

Am I happy with this life – answer is ‘No’. Same Steve’s question pop outs in my mind “If today were the last day of my life, would I want to do what I am about to do today” – answer is ‘No’.

So, what I want to change? – I am trying hard to find answer to this question. However, there are few things that I certainly want to change for me as well as for everyone around me.

I still remember during college days I used to smile a lot, there was always a big smile on my face. I used to feel very pleasant to see all happy faces with big smile around. Now it’s all gone. On my way to office (I call it a ‘Well of death’ – Indian carnival show), I see kids around waiting for their school buses with the same old smile that reminds me of what I was and what I am now. On the same path I see elders, with big question mark on their faces, faces with no expressions at all, people honking all around, pushing each other on streets, in public buses, in public trains and even at the fuel pump or an ATM queues.

One may argue with me that I am also a part to it, I would say 'yes I am', but that is one thing I want to change in my life. I want to see happy faces around me every morning.

When I was in France, I have noticed exactly opposite of what I see in my country. Every morning during my journey to office I used to see many happy faces with a pleasant smile on their faces, it was a good start of a day and I used to see it as a dream world, I remember well that I started to smile during those days, but now I am back home and it’s all gone.

Sometimes I feels as if I am not on the right track, may be people on the different streets have same old smile.

So, finally I am asking a question to myself – Am I on the right track?